December 9, 2006
It has taken me 36 years and the loving support of my soul twin, to finally pay hommage to my voice.
My VOICE, a representation of my SOUL, a MAJOR one, for which I have always had an issue, and for which I always wished different.
My voice, which I always wanted to “work on”, my tone, my manner of BEing when in reference to my VOCAL expression…….
which until NOW has been beyond my attention, my grasp of awareness…..
I, thinking it too difficult, as one wanting to give up fish, when becoming vegetarian, and having a difficult time so doing.
You see it as sooooo difficult, and yet, just like that, as I always say, make the decision, change your perceptual outlook, or BETTER, change your ACTION, and that’s just what I did.
I woke up one day,
as i have many times before mind you,
and chose to keep my voice in a mild calm tone, just how I want it to be.
Ya see, if you want something within you to be, you just need to BE the something you want,
AND, NOT STOP, BE in the NOW, ALWAYS, ALL WAYS….
It’s really not that hard once you know the how and choose to BE…
I want to have a loving voice
to match my face
to match my soul
for whom I walk this beautiful confused earth school.
So I awoke and made the decision, and through out the day, remained conscious of my tone, my voice, in addition to EVERYTHING else I do. Here’s the cool part, it was NOT such a difficult thing to do……I just decided, and when in any
situation, simply maintained my tone, pitch and volume where I wanted it to be.
I reminded myself through out the day, if I can choose which parts of me I want the world to see, knowing there are so many I can choose from, so many I have lovingly put to rest, showing love, truth and soul IS best, then my voice is one and the same. As is my choice to be love instead of anger, patient instead of rushed, trusting instead of stressing, I CHOOSE speaking in a loving tone, instead of a harsh or strong one.
I CAN BE WHOMEVER I WANT TO BE
this is the CHOICE WE ALL have
the CHOICE to BE
and all it takes is so being…..
I reminded myself too, as I went through my day, keeping myself on track, as I do with all the other “tasks” in my life, making sure I know what I’m making my son for dinner, what activities must be accomplished, remember to change the laundry!!! Did I use exclamation points, what happened to the calm voice, just josh’in, still here, no worries.
Of course, being human, I did succumb to a one fear thought, as I maintained my calm voice through out the day, would my family would “call me out”? Would they “see through” my intentional BEingness? Would they make fun of me?
Of course, you know the answer, as clearly as you do, the reaction of most other people, as you pass them by, smile and wish them a good day. There was NO reacting to me in any strange way, just like a warm smile in the street, my intentional calm voice did not stir in others, fear of any kind, in fact what came to BE, is much more peaceful harmony.
When I am ‘here’, others too are drawn within, the waters of calm serenity, even if riding a wave of insecurity.
I must stand true, my soul twin Alina has helped me to know how I may achieve this new expression of soul.
‘Tis very true, ’tis difficult to achieve something if not we know, the HOW.
Although, to this end, research is always a good friend.
Blessed yet again mind thee, was I, with a vocal coach so high,
she showed me how to express soul vocally,
a skill she comes by naturally.
And so, it would seem the time has come,
my vocals are now ready to be with ONE.
Blessed Be
Radiate Soul Light
Rhonda Sheryl Lipstein
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